Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Memoirs of a conventional woman .....

MEMOIRS OF A CONVENTIONAL WOMAN WITH DREAMS A TAD UNCONVENTIONAL, ... TRYING TO LIVE THROUGH AND SURVIVE ACROSS DIFFERENT GAMUTS OF A RELATIONSHIP  .....

I created a world of my own
a home for my soul
I felt like living life
I felt free!
and I held it all in my fist
those white jasmine flowers,
with reverence and awe
as I would hold my newborn
to my chest.
Like a bird that loves to fly
in a vast light blue sky
like the sun that shines
on a golden hued beach
like a moonlight that
nurtures a lover’s mind
I felt like living life
I felt free!
I began to float
joy and choice around me
like a multi colored rainbow bubble
shielding me from the fret and fever
I felt like living life
I felt free!

Then why is it that
the very next moment
all those start slipping through the gaps
in between my fingers
as brittle and slippery as sand,
and then when I tend to search
life appears to lie beside my feet
scattered and unattended
similar to some dead man’s ashes
colorless and opaque.
And the pillar of my imaginary home,
a dream that I nurtured and cherished
like the unborn baby in my womb,
stands forlorn and fickle
and altogether strange
in the context of the known!

Then I realize that it is a cycle
traveling through the passage of moments
from time immemorial.
Soon again would happiness beacon
from air to here, through the universe
promising more, needing more
like an empty page in front of a poet
thoughts conflicting and disappearing
yet again forming and
shaping through words
so I know
soon it would begin to connect
with new found clarity and meaning.

hope persists
I feel like living life
I feel free!
thereafter … forever …

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